I have spent the last three years failing. It seemed as if everything I tried did not work out. I felt that every test God gave me, I came up short. The first real test I passed was sending out “The Promise.” I didn’t want to send it out and I certainly wanted to limit who I sent it to. But, I obeyed God and after four days of reflection (that sounds so much better than terror) I pushed the send button.
Something happened to me when I did that. I felt like if I could step that far out in faith I could do anything. I started to experience sheer joy in where I was at in life. I was sure I was on the right path and God would help me stay on the path. Part of God’s role is to provide for my family so I have the luxury to keep on writing. I believed He would. So, when I found out I would actually be getting some money back from income tax (never, ever happens) I was ecstatic. This is another miracle from God and I happily spent the money in my mind. The kids needed help with first and last month rent for next year’s accommodations. Ron has school tuition to pay. I might even be able to do some spring shopping, a once annual event that hasn’t happened for years.
Life was good…for a moment. I did a calculator for our taxes together and discovered that Ron will owe almost the same amount as I will be getting back. My first reaction was “thanks a lot God” (major sarcastic tone here). Now, this is where the miracle comes in. That reaction lasted for about thirty seconds. Normally, I would brood for days being unhappy that God didn’t come through again. One step forward and two steps back was my motto. But, within thirty seconds I saw God in the situation. God had made sure that I had exactly what I needed to pay Ron’s income tax. What a blessing. I don’t know what we would do if I wasn’t getting my refund. No one wants to be in the position to owe Revenue Canada. I knew then that I had made it to a new level. It was going to take something bigger than that to knock me off my tracks. I saw God working with me instead of against me. The laundry list of what I would have spent the money on will one day be taken care of, I am sure. Oh, what a feeling!
So, I ask you, what does it take to knock you off your tracks? Can you change your perspective to see God working for you instead of against you? When your faith is tested, how do you react?
2 Corinthians 13:5 (NAS) – Test yourself to see if you are in faith; examine yourself! Or do you not recognize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you- unless indeed you fail the test.