Mark Twain once said, “The only person who likes change is a wet baby.” From my perspective, I think he is right.
I have been, at times, terrified of change. As I face the thought of moving this summer, I feel my blood pressure rise and anxiety fills my being. The problem is, I have gotten comfortable where I am in life and it isn’t even a great place. A poorer form of familiar is better than the possibilities in the unknown. And that is how we get stuck in life.
Addressing this fear today, I worked my way out of the quagmire of negative “what if’s” and moved into the realm of infinite possibilities of positive change. A lot of good can come from this move.The biggest gift would be personal growth through the move and the changes that come with it. When we are challenged with change, face it and then conquer it, growth is inevitable. With barriers broken, we can move on to bigger and better instead of settling.
There is also the excitement of having the freedom to choose where I want to live in Windsor and Essex County. Up until this point, every housing choice was for the kids. With Livi graduating this spring, we are able to choose to start a life where our needs are best met. I get to choose for me. It has been twenty years since I could say that. It is difficult to transition from “it is all about the kids” to choosing for us. A new chapter, another change.
I thought I wanted the freedom that change brings. With the elimination of barriers I have lost my sense of security. I don’t know about you, but I hold fast to the tried and true like a child clinging to their favorite blanket. Somewhere, my life took an ugly turn and I ended up in a box of rules and expectations. I wasn’t even aware I was living there until life gave me the chance to get out. Like all creatures, after living within the boundaries for so long, I am scared to move beyond them. This saddens me because I never used to be like this.
So, I feel somewhat like a wet baby right now, miserable in my current circumstances and ready for a change. It is the thought of being warm, dry and comfortable in the future that makes the anxiety a little easier to handle. And, when I have left the box for good, I hope to embrace the freedom and see change as a positive thing.