I often think I spend more time wondering if everything is going to be all right than making sure it will be, at least to any extent that I can, and believing that it will be.
What would life be like if I knew it was going to be okay?
I began 2012 in a haze of uncertainty. My heart was in writing. My head was in reality. My head won. I quit writing and started looking for a job. A real job. It wasn’t what I wanted to do, but what I felt I needed to do. It was a dark moment.
Would I have done anything differently if I knew I would be chosen for Chicken Soup for the Soul? Or, that The Promise would be published and I would get e-mails and phone calls about how it changed lives?
I didn’t trust what was coming. I had no faith in me, my talent, or God to turn things around and make it possible for me to write for a living, supporting my family.
What is in your future that will change the decision you will make today? If you knew the right job was coming, knew that the man of your dreams will step into your life next year, the big break is on its way, would you savor now? Would you work to be ready instead of worrying there is nothing to be ready for?
I am thinking about that today as new opportunities that I could never have imagined have shown up in my life. If I had quit, as I had planned, none of this would be happening. Chicken Soup would be just a book on my shelf, not a book I have written for. The Promise would be a Word document. I would have been like the miner who quit just three feet shy of gold.
If you haven’t heard the story, a man was on a quest for gold and sunk all he had into land and equipment to find it. He was sure he had chosen the right place. But, as each day went by that the samples came up empty, he became discouraged. Eventually, all hope was gone and he sold the land and equipment. His dream was over.
The new owner surveyed the place and thought the vein of gold should have been there. His team began digging and found gold just three feet away from the spot the other man had stopped. Just three feet. There was gold, he just quit too soon to find it. It was right there. He almost made it.
Almost is the worst word in the world.
If he just believed in his heart and ignored his head, he would have his gold and his dream. If he had known he was three feet away, he never would have quit. He stopped believing. You might say, if only he knew.
Yet, his heart knew. His heart put him there working to fulfill the dream. He started knowing and ended second guessing.
What if he knew it was there and everything was going to be better than okay?
It would have changed everything.
What if you knew everything was going to be better than okay?
Would it change everything?
I know it has for me.